Sunday, August 5, 2018

Yang Maha Tinggi

Begitulah. Allah sentiasa membantu hamba-hambaNya yang sentiasa berbuat baik sekalipun orang berbuat buruk terhadapmu. 

Meski engkau merasa ingin membalas dengan keburukan, padamkanlah api kemarahan itu dengan ihsan. Siramkanlah ia dengan kasih sayang. Lalu lenyap hilanglah akan segala kebencian.

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Wednesday, May 2, 2018

Switch

Pagi2 buta tadi, I ingat nak tulis entri Bahagia #1 lol, nak ceritakan how to keep being postive and good all day. Mood pun okay je, banyak benda I setel pagi tadi. Tup2 dalam pukul 10am, ribut taufan melanda, siap angin kencang semua. Empat jam jugak I bertahan dalam situasi tu. Ikutkan hati the whole day I nak mengamuk sebab kalau ikutkan hati yang panas membara, I will drag it sampai ke malam.

Mujur di celahan itu, Allah masih beri kekuatan untuk switch dan buat kerja macam biasa. Payah, I know. Kecewa, I know. Marah, I know. Takpa.. sometimes people makes mistake, pujuk hati. Huhuhu kerja diteruskan hingga menjumpai satu tune, lalu seakan lupa apa yang terjadi.

So hows your day today? Well, got a storms but at least I managed to accomplish several important things yayyyy! Thanks Allah :)

Design poster - checked
Print poster - checked
Website - checked
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Monday, April 23, 2018

Muqarrab

Dalam keadaan hujan yang renyai-renyai itu, hati ini menangis. Bukan kerana kesedihan, tapi hati merasa sebak dan esak akan kasihNya. Tidak memerlukan apa daya sedikitpun, tetapi hanya dengan menerima akan ketetapan (redha) dan sentiasa merasa Dia yang mencukupkan segala keperluan.. lalu Dia membuka pintu harapan yang seakan tertutup tadi seluas-luasnya-- disertakan bersama hujan rahmat mengiringinya sepanjang perjalanan. Begitulah Dia memperlihatkan akan setiap Kemampuan dan Kekuasaan bagi mereka yang benar-benar melihat dan berfikir.

Tiada kata yang dapat ku ungkapkan lagi melainkan tangis deraian airmata yang dapat menyampaikan perasaan terima kasihku ini padaMu. Aku benar2 tunduk dan berserah padaMu. Kekalkanlah aku dalam keadaan sebegini hingga akhir hayatku meskipun emas permata dilimpahkan di hadapanku, izinkanlah aku untuk tetap memilihMu kerana tidak sanggup aku dipisahkan dengan perasaan di kedekatan ini.
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Saturday, April 21, 2018

M7

Bila buat date tracking camni, baru I sedar dah 6 bulan I tak pergi jumpa Prof. Ada saja halangan untuk siapkan chapter 2. So I nekad, I kena pergi jugak. Lepas dah set appointment, boleh pulak demam sebelum nak pi omg ujian apakah ini. Badan memang lemah gila nak pergi, plus I tak siapkan lagi chapter 2. Malam I try buat sikit, ohh cannot. Tak larat sangat. I tidur awal dengan azam nak bangun awal pagi siapkan. Tak juga, bangun 7 lebih dan try buat sikit. Ok la, I set pukul 12:30 I akan gerak ke train station.

Ada banyak lagi sebenarnya tak siap, tapi I cool je. Sebab ada part yang I confuse nak tulis. So I harap Prof akan explain more part tu.


Sampai sana dah pukul 3pm. Dua jam train, sejam dari Shah Alam ke KL Sentral, sejam lagi dari KL Sentral ke Bangi. Sampai2 je, Prof terus ajak makan. Hoho masak lemak cili api cendawan sedap!! Dengan ayam masak black paper auumm. Kalau tak demam mesti I tambah. 


Dah setel semua, Prof suruh I pi teman Firdaus hantar pekerja balik. Jauh juga rumah depa ni, 30 mins camtu. Hari2 Prof atau Firdaus akan ambik dan hantar depa balik. Everything went smoothly.. I siap pi beli apam balik and air mango. 


Sampai rumah Prof, dah lewat petang. Ada masa sekejap ja untuk bincang pasal website. Lepas dapat semua details, I mintak diri sebab dah nak maghrib.

I jalan ke train station. Huhu I lambat 1 minit je, train pun berlalu pergi. Kena tunggu lagi 20 mins.

xxx

Waktu dalam train I dah rasa lain. Menggigil,
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Tuesday, April 17, 2018

26

confine between true or tale,
between people with their dazzle,
bambozzled far from unsettle,
maybe its time for our go,
since our trap far from no,
maybe we gonna graps u from yo sit,
becoz our mind had seen some shit.

rap by co
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Sunday, April 8, 2018

Serve is to serve, Love is to love

I never lose anything because I am nothing. ^^ But I have everything I need, because Allah give me something.



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Tuesday, March 20, 2018

25

I remember an ex-bf who when I asked him how is it really the "missing someone" feels like according to him. He described as a sweet pain that throbs the heart and eats the heart from the inside and makes the stomach flips and twisted into a knot. It makes him feel good but also anxious. It lets him have a certain strong urge to see that person again or at least to hear the voice. But the more he keeps it inside of him, the pain increases. He starts to yearn n pine and wonders alone. At times he would imagine her next to him. And the urge to make a certain countdown to days n hours n minutes and seconds begins when the moments come to meet each other again.

I guess it would be the same for mothers who misses their children too.

Reminded me of the posts made by my friend whenever she misses her hubby when he is outstation. She even posted as saying she felt like crying because she missed him so bad.

I tried to remember what all those feelings feel like again. I haven't missed anyone that much for a looonggg time. Then it started to knock inside of me.

Am I really missing someone now?  Perhaps I am. But it felt strange. Actually it felt good but I am worried that maybe I am just toying with the idea of missing.

It is just that why I feel like it started to hurt inside slowly...
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Saturday, January 6, 2018

24

Many people don't realize that a large majority of the pain they experience during a break-up has nothing to do with the relationship they really had. Relationships always end for a reason. It is rarely a complete surprise because things generally haven't been going well for a while. 

There is often a long list of what each person did or didn't do that led to all the fighting and hurt feelings. Most people don't want back the relationship they actually had. What they mourn for is the relationship they thought they could have had if things had just been different. But the truth is, that relationship didn't exist. Letting go of a dream can be painful. 

When the relationship first started there were expectations set for what it could be based on the good things that seemed to be unfolding at the time. Almost all relationships are great in the beginning-- otherwise they would have never started, but the whole of a relationship is what it was from beginning to end.

Because our mind is trying to heal our heart, the painful memories often get shifted to the background and we find ourselves remembering and longing for the good times. We forget who the person really was and idealize who we wanted them to be.

A good strategy for getting past these moments is to simply write down every painful thing you can remember happening during the relationship and read it over to yourself while making the effort to vividly recall those memories until the painful feelings subside. The point here isn't to stay angry, but to remember the full truth of why the relationship ended. Eventually, letting go of these events will be an important part of the forgiveness and healing process, but in order to let go of something you must first acknowledge and accept that it happened.
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Thursday, November 16, 2017

22

Losing

All of us have different way to deal with the sadness. Some peoples cry, others keep in silent. Some peoples will write while the others will read what has been wrote. And poems are the language when your mouth is muted but your heart speak.
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